Through the Dark Night of the Soul…the 49-Day Buddha Challenge Continues

[For context, the 49-Day Buddha Challenge was something I made up years ago.  I decided to do my best to follow the Buddha’s basic teachings for 49 days as an experiment.  It included avoiding causing harm, daily meditation, doing my best to guard the “sense doors” (i.e., not consume violent or other material that disturbs …

A glimpse at the other side…

January 16, 2024My closest spiritual buddy (also friend, healer, and teacher) is going through some amazing and challenging changes, which seem to me are almost certainly part of a spiritual awakening process.  Our conversation today, which touched on how spiritual change is not all rainbows and unicorns reminded me of something I wrote during a …

Perhaps I’m back!?

FollowTheWheel has gone through a couple of changes and iterations over the years.  Recent events make me think that it may be time to return.  Since my last posts in 2019, I have thought a lot, gone through a lot of therapy, cried a lot, been inspired a lot,  and learned a lot.  I seem …

Existential and Philosophical OCD? Sounds Like Me

I had never heard of “existential and philosophical obsessive compulsive disorder” before this morning (discovered during some light reading during breakfast, haha).  Apparently, this is really a thing.  Not that I need another mental disorder to add to the list, but holy cow this really fits the bill. From an overview webpage from the International …

Musings on The Soul

I am finally caught up at work. I spent some much-deserved downtime yesterday driving though the North Georgia mountains. Fall is my favorite season and I enjoyed the cool, rainy, and windy weather (yeah I know, I’m weird). One thing I like about this sort of weather is that you’re not necessarily supposed to do …

Defining the Goal: What the Heck am I Seeking? (Part I)

I realized that the last post should have been the Part II to this, which is really Part I.  Although I think that these are not really sequential parts, in that both will occur somewhat at the same time, Part I represents a set of more foundational aspects of what I’m working on.  These foundations …

Defining the Goal: What the Heck am I Seeking? (Part II)

This is an important and difficult question: what am I seeking?  My answer: the answers to the generally unanswerable, duh!  One of the best quotes I’ve ever heard is: if you keep asking “why?” long enough, the only honest answers you’ll get are “I don’t know” and “because I said so”.[1]  Humans have invented countless …

On Serenity

It has been about two weeks since my last post, and those two weeks have been very hectic and have had a lot of downs, especially recently from work.  To summarize: I went and took on more than I could handle…again.  And I just tried to grit my teeth and get through it with brute …

Starting Over…Again :)

This blog, like my path, has had a lot of twists and turns over the last few years.  Sometimes the twists and turns are frustrating, and getting lost over and over again has been infuriating at times.  But it has been worth it. It reminds me of hiking.  Sometimes you hike a hike and never …